VOID

the address below does not exist anymore.

CH- CH- CH- CHECK IT

johannwrites.blogspot.com
johannwrites.blogspot.com
johannwrites.blogspot.com
johannwrites.blogspot.com
johannwrites.blogspot.com
johannwrites.blogspot.com
johannwrites.blogspot.com
johannwrites.blogspot.com
johannwrites.blogspot.com

The Farewell Blog.

This will be my last self-evaluation blog entry. *BIG SMILE HERE*

Essential Questions:
1. Total Number of Hours on your time log
-- Up until the unfortunate incident that ruined my Fiziks binder, I remember at least 80 hours logged into that sheet, most of which were collected during Spring Break. I haven't created a new time log, and that's my fault. -_-

2. Planner Check
-- I actually started the year off with my parents signing my planner every Friday. However, a few months into the school year, I began to think that it was only for Tillay's other
students and it didn't apply to us. Because of this, I stopped asking for my parent's signature.
I have proof in my planner of the sudden change.

3. Have you returned ALL TXTBOOKS to Mr. T/Library?
-- YES, I HAVE. I AM 100% SURE. Trust me, I don't want those books!

4. My project will be done tomorrow, and done well too!
-- I'd like to go inbetween the yes and no, but that doesn't work in the real world, so: NO. It will not be done in terms of Tillay's standards. Honestly, I'm scared to publish all that I've been working on.

5. I have paid for my Kaplan Guide.
-- YES. Thanks for providing us with the discount Mr. T!

---

MY EFFORT THE LAST 4 WKS: Very Good. In comparison to the effort I exerted towards Fiziks, this was most definitely better. I enjoy projects on this nature as you will see in my "The Processes I Do Best" section. It seemed obvious to me that the reason for my effort was because I was actually enthusiastic about the subject.

TURNING IN WORK LAST 4 WKS: Poor. In the beginning, I turned in the pre-work for the website. But as I kept working on it I decided not to publish it, which is basically our the form of submitting it so Tillay can keep you on track. I was scared to publish it any more after the first time, ahhh.. my mind was just being really stupid and made no sense.

DECRIBE YOURSELF AS A STUDENT (5 SENTENCES): I have a dual personality as a student. On my good days, I work to be the best and strive for perfection. On my not-so-good days, Im an "avergae joe" who gets the work done only when convenient. Hmmm, this can only mean one thing: I'm NOT a student, or at least, I shouldn't be considered one in comparison to the rest of the world.

HOW DO YOU NEED TO IMPROVE? It's the same problem over and over again. I need to take a hold of my emotions and personal issues before it takes a hold of me. Akk the flaws I exert are directly rekated to my mood and mindset. Instead of trying to fix the small glitches, it would be best to work on the source of the problem. Improving this area of my life will be tough, -_-.

WHAT GRADE HAVE YOU EARNED FOR 4th QTR/2ND SEM? -->B<--
I haven't acted like an 'A 'student all year. I've been mediocre in that I've succumbed to the 'B' and remained fine with it. A 'C' would not be justified because I DO do work, despite my circumstances (which shouldn't even be interfering in the first place!)




SO LONG, FARWELL, GOOD RIDDANCE?

Ahhh.. I'm sleepy! All-nighters truly kill bodily functions. Good Night Blogger.

A Vicious Circle

I'm not getting anywhere. I'm wandering around like a mindless fool just trying to get by. I want to break away from the cycle, but I've already licked the lollipop of mediocrity and I'm reaping what I've sown. It's time to suck forever, right?

Wrong.

I've never lost faith in myself. I may have dwindled in confidence and succumbed to my emotions, but I can never allow myself to hit rock-bottom. I'm just so caught up in trying to break my habits that frustration begins to overwhelm my efforts. My parents haven't been of much help either. I know that they can only affect me if I allow them to, but damn- that which was once my greatest motivation has become my greatest debilitation.

I may not be strong, but I'm strong enough. I'm still pressing on for my fighting chance. I can still prove to myself that I have what it takes. Hello, AP Fiziks Exam.

I may not be able to recover from all the slack I've put up in Quarter 3, but my situation isn't hopeless. Senioritis is stupid. Like Earnest wrote in his evaluation, "...it is not real if you do not allow yourself to believe it." It is true that I've been running around in this vicious circle, but on the bright side: I'm not standing still. 

I really don't have a plan of attack right now; I guess I'm going to take the next few weeks as it comes. There's this phrase taped on Mr. Hopgood's wall that has always caught my attention: READY FIRE AIM. Robert E. Morgan tied that in with John Lennon's quote of "Life is what happens when you're busy making plans." Perhaps I need to cut down on the overpreparation and just Go! How do I expect to reach the finish line if I don't even start? 

I swear, I really need accountability. 

Mmmmm, 3rd quarter has definitely been disappointing. But, my experiences work together for the greater good. As long as I never give up, I'll do just fine. Mr. T never ceases to remind me that I WILL make it through. I just have to "hang in there". If there's anything that I've gained from this Quarter, it would be acceptance. I'm not too worried about my grade anymore, I'll accept what I deserve. My focus is the AP Exam, and that alone.

I THINK I CAN. I THINK I CAN. I KNOW I CAN. I WILL. [pass the AP exam]

Impossible you say? Well...

Impossibility simple means I'M POSSIBILITY. Hehehe.

John Jacob Jingle Heimer Schmidt.

To be able to identify my weaknesses allows me to be able to appreciate my strengths. 

John allows one to appreciate Johann. Make sense?

John is cool. He is able to bullshit work and pass throughout the day in complete satisfaction because he knows that he is capable of whizzing through classes regurgitating crap and in return, is awarded five points and a gold star. He sleeps in his 2nd period class with an earphone in each ear, waking up to find that the bell indicating the passing period to 3rd had already rung. He loves math to the extent of his love for sushi, the raw components are what matter to him. Hmmm, so as much as he excels in math, why does problem-solving come so rocky?

Application is the forsaken word. Integrating concepts to solve word problems is just one step too many. Words and math shouldn't mix. That's his basic philosophy. John is the product of his surroundings. He can't help it. He's conformed into the ways of the oblivious Apache and there's no going back. Ok- well maybe there is, but he's content right where he's at. Why change when it's not mandatory? Ignorance is bliss and bliss > change anyday baby.

John loves staying up all night running on a Rockstar. He's smart because he does the work. From the beginning of middle school, he's noticed that his teachers could care less about the road taken, as long as he gets to the destinati

on. Result? All-nighters it is.

A master procrastinator once said, "I work better under pressure". These immortal words seem to always justify John's lack of initiative. As much as the work is intended for the home, John sees that his home just doesn't seem to be intended for the work. John comes home taking for granted that time does indeed possess wings. The night is never young, the day is just too old and it keeps getting older. But oblivious little John ignorantly skips past that little detail. Time management, HA!

John likes to think he can suppress his emotions and act as if everything's okay. He challenges himself to put up a front and not let such emotions affect his "education". John's in way over his heels. As cool as he is, he cracks. He may not wear his emotions on his sleeve, but there's always that point when the force overcomes the shelf of control and it collapses. Although he's recovered and is running a net torque of zero right now (aka equilibrium), he's realized that it's too much of a risk to let that happen again. Luckily, John's a happy camper right now. 

John, John, John--- Center of attention in Fiziks, yet completely under the radar the rest of the day. Tillay just has the incredible perception to see right through the John-ness monster, weaknesses and all...

JOHANN CHRISTINE REYES ALCARAZ:

She's the real thing, just overshadowed.

As much as life is worth living, I make it a point that I live to make mine worthwhile. I've learned to never hesitate in pursuing my dreams and desires, and to never underestimate myself because I know the extent of my potential and capabilities. My life is lived in the company of my best friend, my boyfriend, and a select few who have proven their solid genuine friendship. I am one to pay attention to the finer points and notice the subtleties. I am a Christian and my faith is in my Lord & Savior, Jesus Christ. I am currently a senior aspiring to attend UC Berkeley this Fall. I firmly believe that an About Me concentrated with arbitrary facts never has and never will suffice in truly portraying the person I am.

Above is a Copy & Paste from Johann's Myspace.

She has that worker attitude to the point where she WILL get it done. She takes criticism and underestimation and channels it towards proving to others that she's better than what you think of her. She may not be the coolest person, but it's a fair trade-off for success. Once you get her mind started, it keeps going and going and going and going. She likes to analyze things, overanalyze perhaps. It worked to her benefit sometimes because it's become habti for her to dig deep rather than to stay at the surface. She's not shallow, I can tell you that much.

She's very open-minded. With a business/entrepreneurial mindset instilled, skepticism escapes her. The world is a sphere filled with potential and she understands that. She may not be label liberal but she's one to willingly consider change. With that said, her learning experience is dynamically sound. She isn't stagnant on her educational growth nor is she completely set on her educational approach. Some say that change shows vulnerability and unstableness, but in the correct F.O.R., it truly is improvement. 

[& the fact that she comes from so-and-so high school brings to her attention that college is going to be an even bigger bitch. If she chooses to remain unmindful to that harsh reality, she'll never be able to confront the face of fear- and she knows that.]  

She has a good head on her shoulders and her priorities in life are set straight. She has two feet planted firmly on the ground when it comes to her values and her goals. She is strong-willed and assertive when the situation calls for it. She loves being the underdog and being undermined by those who know nothing about her or her background, because the opportunity for that "In yo' face" look is worth it all to her. She may be prideful, but it's her pride that keeps her going to an extent. She knows her limits and understands that balance is essential in life. 

With life being a continuous learning process and improvent opportunity, she steadily works to raise her emotional moment of inertia. When Johann isn't satisified, she does something about it. Point blank, period.

Did I mention she loves math? It just clicks for her. If anything, with the combined efforts of a more visually conceptual mind like Big E's, and her linear sequqntial reasoning and passion for numbers, wonderous things can result as due to collaboration.

BLAH BLAH BLAH.

So what's the point? Johann this, John that... yakkety yakkety yak.

Each side is an extreme and of course, a mixture of the two characteristics make up who I am. I have my John days and I have my Johann days. It's inevitable to escape one or the other because one offsets the other and that's the beauty of it. Strengths and weaknesses depict the person, not the success. It's the approach and the utlization of the knowledge of such strengths and weaknesses that bring about the achievements.

John hates Fiziks and Johann endures. Weakness & Strength, personified.